On Fairy Tales and Life.

I think I've determined what the problem that everyone my age seems to have is (or at least what my problem is):

I'm young enough to still dream about my wished-for happily-ever-after life, but old enough to realize the world doesn't work that way.

Contradiction or not, it is how my thoughts tend to go. And it irritates me.

English/On Socialization:

I would just like to note that there is an important difference between 'etc.' and 'ect.':

One of them is an actual abbreviation for "et cetera" and the other is not (I'll let you figure out which is which).

Thank you.
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On a different note, someone mentioned to me the idea of a 'socialization class.' You know, in order to teach people how to be social and acceptable to the general public. Honestly, though, I think that's not something you can be taught in school. You have to learn to be socially acceptable through experience. Can you imagine how anyone would get along if no one learned how to interact until they were in school, until they were 12 or 13?

Even though I know I am not the best at...following social norms, the idea of taking a class on how to fit in kind of repulses me. I dunno, it's just an idea that struck me as odd.

Thoughts and Sleeplessness.

I’ve been sitting in front of my computer for the last four hours, listening to music turned up way too loud. It’s a great way to drown out thinking. Not that I’m feeling upset or anything. It’s just that the longer I stay up, the more emotional I tend to get, and I have been awake for almost twenty-two hours now. So not thinking is probably the best idea. Haha.

- I got my SAT scores back today. I’d been waiting for a month, so I’m glad to have gotten that over with.
- Rehearsal today was…interesting. I don’t really know what to say about it.
- It’s the first day of a four-day weekend. I’ll finally get some sleep (well, maybe. I wonder why I’m still up right now)...
- I listened to a piece of music that someone in the cast was composing today. It was pretty amazing.
- I find myself both dreading and wishing for school to end.
- ...Grease opens in 2 weeks.
- Seems like I keep expecting the bottom to drop out.

Age Difference?

I spent a while today walking around and hanging out with one lady who is 10 years older than me and another who is 20 years older than me.

Nice to know we have stuff in common.

Fashion Sketches.

Because I felt like it.

*Click*

Willie came back from ISEF (the International Science and Engineering Fair) today. This is, of course, a good thing. It’s a sad thing to be a twinless-twin. And he and Fei won $2,000 in prizes, about which I am, of course, very proud.

And I let him take my camera (I’m such a nice sister). But, really, it was more for my benefit than his. Though I know that, over the next six to eight weeks, I will have to constantly protest that I don’t need to hear (again) about how he won (again), I will look at the pictures a lot. I went through them all already. Photographs have less bias, and you can get as much of a story from looking at one as you can from having to sit through ten minutes of talking.

Plus, Fei is adorable in photographs. Haha.

I'm Allowed to be Nervous, Right?

Grease opens in three weeks. Is it weird that, at the same time, I am both terribly excited and terribly frightened by the idea of being in this musical? This is the biggest show I’ve ever been in, but also the quickest in terms of rehearsal. I mean, we only started practicing two weeks ago, and they expect us to go on stage in only three more.

Maybe it’s reasonable that, with such a talented and professional-seeming cast (and eleven performances in front of real audiences made of people that I don’t know), I should feel a little-self conscious or worried. But, at the same time, shouldn’t that be reason to feel a little safer about this? Even if I’m not brilliant, I know so much of the cast will be. If nothing else, I wish I could dance like most of them can.

On a completely different note, Willie’s only been gone for a day-and-a-half, and I miss him already. I don't like being an only child.

Entry Number One:

I made a blog.

How do I start one of these without the first entry sounding silly? I don’t have anything to say yet, but I figure that there has to be some good place to start. Therefore, I shall start here.

Entry one. El principio. Tah-dah.

I’ll write something with actual content when I find I have something to say.

~Lila.